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10 CutsOne for the love I once felt for you,
Two because I thought our love was true.
Three for how I let you play with my heart and mess with my mind.
Four because I thought I could change your ways.
Five for how much time I wasted on you,
Six because all you did is throw it all away.
Seven because everything we shared meant absolutely nothing.
Eight for the fact that I lost you,
and I can't do anything to get you back.
Nine because you chose her over me,
Ten because I'm sorry I am not perfect,
but trust me I will never stop loving you
Too Late...Can't you hear my plea?
I'm caged up, And need to be set free.
I call for you,
But you don't come.
What do I need to do?
Fall on my knees and bleed.
Can't you see I'm hurt enough,
And all I need is help.
I call for you!
I scream for you!
But you don't come to my rescue...
What will it take?
To see me dead!
Will you notice then?
The pain I felt,
How lost I was!
Will you notice all my injuries...
The cuts and bruises.
What about the suicide attempts?
Will you count how many there were?
Or will you stand there,
And say what a beautiful girl she was,
When all you did was bully me...
Fuck Up...Quenching my thirst,
Burning my throat,
Numbing my feelings.
Not allowing me to think,
Walking like a zombie,
My head clouded,
I don't realize what I do.
It's in my hand again,
How could it be?
It goes through.
And the sting brings me...
Back to reality,
Back to emotional pain.
I cut again.
Just...They tell me to stop,
But I keep going...
It's not their choice but mine,
And I won't stop until they start showing.
Breaking the HabitShout into my pillow,
Let it hear my screams,
To feel my pain,
And know my fears.
I'll cry myself to sleep,
and want to do it again.
So I'll claw at my wrists,
and wish they'd bleed...
I'll look in a mirror,
And force myself to smile.
The mirror always lies to me,
It shows me who I want to be.
Not the real Nathalie...
I'll fall to the floor,
And start to cry.
I just need one more,
Just to stop the pain
I'm going through.
But I can't go back to it,
Because tonight I'm breaking the habit.
This Is MeI am from cuts on my skin,
Tears in my eyes,
A broken heart,
And suicide thoughts that never die.
Heart AcheYou told me,
That you'd never leave,
You'd always be by my side.
Now you're gone and I can't breathe.
My heart aches,
It longs for you.
I don't know why you left,
If our love was true.
All the time we spent,
Did it mean anything at all?
Because if it did,
Then why'd you let me fall?
You're gone now,
And there's nothing left to do.
I've bawled my eyes out,
And I'll try my best to let you go.
Just know one thing.
I will ALWAYS love you.
I Love You...I told you to stay away from me,
That I wanted no part of you anymore.
But you sticked by my side,
And told me that you loved me.
You wanted to know why we fell out,
Why my feelings for you had abruptly vanished,
But I didn't know how to tell you.
I kept stalling telling you lies,
Saying "I never loved you..."
But it was just a lie.
I thought the longer I kept you waiting,
Maybe my love would come back.
Just maybe I could love you the way you love me.
But you started talking,
Making me see the truth of how I broke you.
The words slipped out of my mouth,
"I loved you, but my love for you vanished.
I don't know why but they just did..."
I told you the truth and you took it in tears.
"That is all I needed to hear."
You walked away from me,
And to this day we haven't spoken.
But I see you've lost you're love for me,
And gave it to someone else.
Now I realize what I did was wrong,
But the worst part is I did love you,
I do love you... And I don't know what to do.
Life Isn't EasyDon't worry you say,
Everything will be okay.
But how do you know,
Have you gone through my pain...
Do you know how I feel,
Or do you think this isnt real.
Do you think I'm a fake?
Because life isn't a piece of cake.
It's not a sweet ride,
Where nothing bad happens.
It is full of bumps on the road,
And life is just a habbit.
You wake up every morning,
As happy as can be.
But me on the other hand,
I wake up with dried tears on my face,
A pillow absolutely drenched,
And some dried blood on my wrist.
You don't believe it,
It cant possibly be true.
Well take another guess,
Because what I'm about to say,
Is the absolute truth...
the road i'm onI'm walking this road alone
My past is here, but my future's gone
Darkness grows where the sun should shine
You lied when you said everything was fine
Then where is the love, the love to be mine
I'm pleading, pleading just one more time
father forgive me for all my crime
i have nothin' to give but all my sins'
You can have it you can hold it
I'd give you my soul, but i already sold it
SILVER RAINThe rain is of the color silver
Cold and alone it makes me shiver
Makes me wonder,
Where will I go, where does my soul roam
Will I find a place to call my home
Where does my path leadeth
I thought of this hurting,
As my heart bleedeth, and breaking
The blood floweth forward,
As my heart is aching
A color of mystery,
A color of crimson red,
It shines in the nights,
Showing nothing but my pain
But still i sit in the silver rain
When I was a young boy, still When I was a young boy, still hoping to grow up
Not knowing of the burdens, that comes along with being a man
I wanted to be the strongest, now I don’t even understand
I always wanted to be a fighter, now I am just a writer
Expressing his hopes to the world,
I wanted to be the savior of all broken and the lost
I wanted the to be protector of the weak, at any cost
Now if you ask me, do you think they should be save
I’d say I don’t care anymore, overcame by the hate
They fallen so far into this earth,
No matter how strong, you can't pull them back up
Physically your trying, mentally you’re dying
Only god can save his world
Before you try to be a hero, make sure you’re not to be save
Nothing fills your spirit but divine righteousness,
forget about the hate
I’m killing myself for everyone else, but no one’s dying for me
So why they ask me weren't you that strong
Every time I’d answer I was a young boy and still lost
DARK As the stars slip through the skies
On a dark night
Look at the light... as it dies
Hatred is shining bright
Fighting the hunger, fighting the war
Lilies die as the roses rise
Crimson red of the freshly dead
No longer, No MORE
Hatred is at its core
Hope withers away, as darkness fulfills the day
Band of brothers, we're here to stay
sick of the agony, sick of the pain
this is why i'm insane
igniting the fire
Lighting the flame
But who is the one to Blame !!!!
from the heart, real quicki don't know what i am
but i know that i'm not a normal man
is my soul gone or is it just cold
but the stupid things i do, has left me here alone
i try so hard to be what she wants me to be
but i just can't see the light
that she sees in me
im on the wrong with my sins
the devil is the driver of this one way train
only emotion left for me is agony and the pain
that i feel
am i just running away from love
or did destiny and devil made it this way
if there was anything i could to change
to my life, rearrange, just for her sake
but its not that easy
going through those nights alone
waking up with out her there to hold
each and everyday
i am the one blame, everything i touch just decays
and it sets up in flames
whats wrong with me, baby just leave
dont ever come back to me
only thing i do is hurt the ones i love
don't know where i'm headingWaking up every morning,
dreaming of tomorrow,
but i'm still thinking of the pain of yesterday,
but slowly my heart decays
i don't know what i want,
i don't know what i need,
so here i am, i'm on my knees
the days goes by
my cries are left unanswered
now i realize that i'm alone,
and no one wants to help a broken soul,
i'm one a one way journey to hell,
i have nothing to loose so why not take it,
i don't have to make it,
anything is better than being alone,
i have searched and love can't be found,
so this path has made me,
and i am in the making of hatred
light of loveWith love and passion of krypton blue
Loves burn bright
And will always be true
Even on the darkest night
Just look towards the slightest light
Even though love is hidden in sight
Beware its powers, passion,s might
Thee maybe garbed in plight
(Broken thy heart is bound) ...
Listen for love, even the slightest sound
Forever MoreForever More
It's said true friendship is strong
A tree hundreds of years old
yet I saw a withered leaf falling
And the green begins to fade
Look beyond the withered leaf
See past the fading green
Look down into the soil
Where strong roots do grow.
I can hear dry branches cracking
And all the oncoming storms
Black clouds darkening the sky
Are we strong enough to prevail?
Though the branches may crack
As the winds bend them back
Look beyond the darkening clouds
The rays of the sun can be found.
I don't want to lose what we had.
I don't want to see it die.
But the wind takes the leaves away.
A barren skeleton is what is left.
You will not lose what is there
The beauty of nature will prevail
For beneath the soil the roots will grow
Blooming leaves that are forever more
When did we stop to care?
Hoping the tree's big enough
Our visits became rare
FallingHushed tears brim my dark brown eyes
Because of all the feelings I must hide
No one can know the turmoil I feel
The pain and depression thats
eating away at me
Each day I smile like nothing is wrong
Giving bright smiles to each and all
Yet each day is a struggle to make it through
Not showing what is true
Looking in the mirror I hate what I see
This person that reflects in front of me
Its not who I am
Who I want to be
I am lost and dont know how to find
my way back to me
Feeling dead inside at times
A loss of something that I cant explain
I am falling to pieces inside
Drowning in my silent sea of tears
Screaming, yet no one can hear
Yet there is something in my voice you notice
Or is it the distance in my eyes
Asking me if I am alright
I lie to you and say I am fine
Not wanting you to really know
the hopelessness I am feeling
I know I have much to be grateful for
That I shouldnt feel this way
But this is how it is
The truth is in these words I write to
We're Done...The love of my life,
I thought I'd found you.
But you turned out to be another scoundrel.
No longer must I harm myself,
Because you say I'm wrong.
No more torture,
For this silly sad love song.
The crimson red has stopped,
And all my cuts have healed.
But you kept opening my biggest wound...
My heart left bleeding all alone.
I sealed it myself,
By realizing you're not the one...
And now I do my bidding of finishing our love song.
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